underused or overused

i've been blaming my mood swings, the extensive activity in shoving food into my mouth, and the backaches on PMS, i've been waiting and waiting and waiting. so where is it & when is it ever gonna come so i can get ovr & done wif. strange to say, but my berkor (little auntie) loves it. says it reminds her of her 'womanliness' and she loves the feeling she gets when she laughes reallie hard and it whooshes out. yep, sad but true. or like when u sneeze & then u've gotta stop and feel.

exams are over. omg. i so want a long vacation. man, dat's all i want. seriously. dat's all. it's comin to a point where i'm sick of all the bullshit. it's gay & i'm tired. nus, nlc, isc, guild, uni, whatever. again, i seek; solitude; a mindless book (none of dat james patterson bs, sori chaboh but he riles me up); and a comfy bed dat will never feel uncomfortable regardless of how long u sleep on it. oh, and a pair of yummy pretty pjs.

miss list

1) Mummy

2) The people up there who had the courage to leave

3) Peace

4) movie nites wif cheh

5) christmas

Things to look forward to...gosh, i'm sad! i don't have any!!!blooody hell!how does dat work eh? u freakin journey thru hell looking forward to the end of the journey & now u end up wif...rite, so wat am i gonna do next?

the old couple hv resumed to thier normal routine of arguments, blame & spatting poisonous remarks abt each other's family. so like, mum wanted to jump into the river when she was camping. apparently, she asked sa kor for courage but sa kor din respond so...yeah, she decided not to.

Tuesday, 11 a.m.

tiffy has a fag. garage door opens, tiffy runs for the bin whilst stubbing out the freshly lit menthol. sighs.

tiffy: how was it?

mum: never again!

tiffy: again? WHyyyy? u're like dat after every single camping trip.

mum: why?!! i can't stand him anymore.

haih yah...