trudging on

i had a conversation wif the boy abt religion last nite...

yes, hot topic it is, tho i was surprised it was such a light hearted discussion (light-hearted as in no heated debate...tho all of a sudden i had rashes on my body, the kinda rash u get wen u're stressed and the more u scratch the more appears, i was by no means stressed but my i was in a state where i cldn't even comprehend my own thots)...and it ended up quite...sad.

Back in highschool, my frens had alwys teased me abt treating religion as a fad. I was a devout christian for 2 years (ages 8 and 9) and explored a variety of other teachings; Taoism; Shamanism; Confucianism...u get my drift. In form 3 (15 years of age), we had to sit for an exam, not dissimilar to TEE, before the exam the school organised for us to ask for, god knows *rolls eyes*, spiritual guidance or protection or sumthin of dat sort.

in any case, we were split into our religions, so u had to choose ur own religion and join dat group. Amongst those available were: Islam, Buddhism, Christian and HIndu. Now, I couldn't join Islam, nor could I join HIndu...I had no faith. None watsoever. So after the announcement was over, everybody went to thier own groups...and i din knoe where to go.

The Buddhist group was dominated by chinese speaking kids (most of whom thot i was a bitch - jus cos i dun smile doesn't mean i'm unfriendly) and the christians were ...well indian and chinese english speaking ....christians. I was lost for a moment. I considered the buddhists...but i had a look at them again...and decided not to..in any case, Gillian pulled me into her group (staunch christian she is, tho never once has she preached to me nor judge me for wat i am).

They talked, they motivated and they sung. Now, for most of u dat knoe me...knoe dat I dun hv a religion, nor do i believe in having one for myself. But, I have to say...i hold religion very close to my heart. It affects me in a way...even i cannot comprehend its affect on me...

an unfriendly post

its funi how u'd think onli the closest/totali anonymous ppl read ur blog hence,

a) u noe they care abt u & wld like to keep updated on wat u've been up to

and

b) they wld never use ur blog against u (cos personal attacks r for ...in my younger sister's words of wisdom, lame - o's)

but recently, things hv changed, my blog has been linked in several places...making it more accessible for 'certain' ppl.

as such i will not reveal anything to do abt the political side of the student bodies i'm involved in. so if u r reading b'cos u want updates on NLC, be it National or State, well i wld suggest for u to stop reading now. In any case, for those of u in dat category, i do not tink u'd be interested in my personal life...so, STOP READING THIS SPACE if dat is ur intention.

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