hung up

Its the first time i've ever hung up on anybody.

I have (many a time) pull the fone away from my ear but mostly out of boredom or to muffle the voice of the odd loud talking person. But you know how you hang up in anger? It's a whole new dimension altogether. And this is a very dear fren of my mine. Though, things have gotten ...awfully sour since I started working on the conference. Well, not always sour, we do have good times.

to be honest, I've been simmering like a week old pot of kimchi stew since we started working on the conference.

Its your typical unforeseen circumstance.

We decide to put in a bid for the conference.

We win the bid to host conference.

One of us gets a job at the law firm (I am no law student)

One of us is left organising this conference that we made a pact to work together on.

Our friendship crumbles (though that is on a 'to be continued...' note - who knows?)

It's not that I don't understand her stress and how important her career is to her. If anything, I believe a career for a woman is of utmost importance (where else are u getting funds for those louboutins?). But she made a promise. When we put in the bid, I knew she would be getting a job, she knew she would be getting a job. In short, we both knew. But what I pulled from it was, she would then have an office to where she could work from and therefore, she'd be able to make calls, faxes, etc w/o cost.

how was i to know that she wouldn't be able to work out of the office?

I guess its not reali about the workload. Its more like not having a partner to guide u towards the right direction lest you fall out of focus. I value her opinion and I need her opinion. And the truth of the matter is, i feel isolated. We went in it together and now...

In any case, hanging up on someone is not one of those zingers you would wish to zing on someone. Especially your fren. and the more I think about it, the worse i feel about hanging up. but then again, given the chance i would've done the exact same thing again.

-ends-

am back!

So I was in the toilet one day (namely, yesterday) taking a crap (its just too bad if u feel grossed out by this) when I stumbled upon...and internet connection!! Yes, a mixed racial couple just moved into Unit One and I'm guessing they have yet to secure their network. So what if it's one bar...works for me. And if u were wondering what I was doing in the toilet with my lappy...i was bored (hv read all my vogues(UK included), Vanity Fair, Harper and Queens and Bazaar from cover to cover, and wasn't readi for another round of Murakami ) so brought the lappy in to play *drumroll*....

spider solitaire!

I'm hearing sniggers but whatever cos i got the internet connection and here i am.

so, its a new year; it's a month and a bit to my birthday, my ah kong passed away, my dad's slowly becoming an alcoholic and I will be graduating in ...8 months. No, seriously, my dad reali is becoming an alco, in the morning he pours his JW into a tea cup and pretends its tea...no surprises there just dat his face is turning into this gray ashen colour...

i knoe i said i had enuf of student representation/politics (i can hear u say, here we go again, she's still involved) but i just had to do this one last thing. the thing is, for the past 3 yrs I've been to every NLCAC (nlc annual conf) there was...yes, so i've been to 3. And i've always thot we could do better. So here I am organising my 4th nlcac.

ok, dat was bullshit. I needed it for my PR internship. its such a hassle sending out ur resume hoping some tourist centre/theatre/festival committee will take u in as their slave for 20 freakin days. and i knew we were gonna win dis bid so...

thing is now dat i've convinced my unit controller to let me use it as my internship...I've gotta stick it thru. no more threats of quitting (dun wanna bloody fail the unit).

so here's the situation:

1) we do not have a national convenor (he's stuck in india with...typhoid?) and nat exec refused to accept his resignation letter (cos it was in the form of an email *rolls eyes*) 2) My MD and ED won't be there during the conf cos they hv to work 3) student asso's not keen on sponsoring b'cos of vsu 4)i cannot stand the nepalese!!! absolutely cannot communicate or understand him! plus he's a dick.

ok, dats abt it for now. the tummy's growling and dun wanna let gastric cross the line.

hugs and kisses to everyone

its been a while

ever since 'dat' incident, i've been finding it reali hard to blog...i mean i dun reali want sum unknown person readin my ...stuff.

but, since its my blog...and its 'been a while' ...i'll move on.

its been a KRAZIE HECTIC month so far...i dunno how much more of this i can take.

i noe dat jacky's at his breaking point and so am i...everyone's looking to u for answers and ...honestly speaking, i've got none left.

elections are driving me mad...and for the first time (during elections!) i was reduced to tears.

I kid u not, and of all ppl i sought comfort in...it was maureen meredith and terry healy (whilst they were eatin their briyani..and maureen wouldn't stop goin on abt how yum it was..no appetite). I love maureen, she's the most energetic optimistic person ever...plus she had traces of Kristal which was a big source of comfort. Terry jus said, its elections and its dirty!!! But over the yrs ...or rather during my duration at Curtin, elections hasn't beeeeen dat dirty...

i seem to hv reali bad luck wif elections. this yr has been the toughest yet. One reali nice thing dat happened tho was...in building 402 of CBS, an IT staff actualie put the words "Vote 1 for International Association, Unity in Diversity" on their blinking red signboard. Dat was a real boost for us!!! Unbelievable, even the staff are supporting us.

2 more days...and 2 months...and I'll b done. If there is a lord, I will then say, praise the lord.

Big thank you's to the wonderful ppl dat are still groovin & hv supported me...Jo Sweetie (thx for comin 2day, made a whole lotta difference!!), Mun (hehe, the late nite talks and ur ...understanding? and love), eRic (in sum form or another), jack teo!, naomi (hehe, u mite not tink u've done much, but hanging out wif u was wonderful enuf 2 rejuvenate me), and kristal babes (for calling me so unexpectedly!!)

the boy is not forgotten, he's been wif me every step of the way...every step, yang. I truly appreciate it.

if i've mispelled anything or hv bad grammar...blame it on the lack of functionality of the brain. yes, it is rendered to mush...and dat PR Law Test is still awaiting!!! god damn u, Hotham Way!

trudging on

i had a conversation wif the boy abt religion last nite...

yes, hot topic it is, tho i was surprised it was such a light hearted discussion (light-hearted as in no heated debate...tho all of a sudden i had rashes on my body, the kinda rash u get wen u're stressed and the more u scratch the more appears, i was by no means stressed but my i was in a state where i cldn't even comprehend my own thots)...and it ended up quite...sad.

Back in highschool, my frens had alwys teased me abt treating religion as a fad. I was a devout christian for 2 years (ages 8 and 9) and explored a variety of other teachings; Taoism; Shamanism; Confucianism...u get my drift. In form 3 (15 years of age), we had to sit for an exam, not dissimilar to TEE, before the exam the school organised for us to ask for, god knows *rolls eyes*, spiritual guidance or protection or sumthin of dat sort.

in any case, we were split into our religions, so u had to choose ur own religion and join dat group. Amongst those available were: Islam, Buddhism, Christian and HIndu. Now, I couldn't join Islam, nor could I join HIndu...I had no faith. None watsoever. So after the announcement was over, everybody went to thier own groups...and i din knoe where to go.

The Buddhist group was dominated by chinese speaking kids (most of whom thot i was a bitch - jus cos i dun smile doesn't mean i'm unfriendly) and the christians were ...well indian and chinese english speaking ....christians. I was lost for a moment. I considered the buddhists...but i had a look at them again...and decided not to..in any case, Gillian pulled me into her group (staunch christian she is, tho never once has she preached to me nor judge me for wat i am).

They talked, they motivated and they sung. Now, for most of u dat knoe me...knoe dat I dun hv a religion, nor do i believe in having one for myself. But, I have to say...i hold religion very close to my heart. It affects me in a way...even i cannot comprehend its affect on me...

an unfriendly post

its funi how u'd think onli the closest/totali anonymous ppl read ur blog hence,

a) u noe they care abt u & wld like to keep updated on wat u've been up to

and

b) they wld never use ur blog against u (cos personal attacks r for ...in my younger sister's words of wisdom, lame - o's)

but recently, things hv changed, my blog has been linked in several places...making it more accessible for 'certain' ppl.

as such i will not reveal anything to do abt the political side of the student bodies i'm involved in. so if u r reading b'cos u want updates on NLC, be it National or State, well i wld suggest for u to stop reading now. In any case, for those of u in dat category, i do not tink u'd be interested in my personal life...so, STOP READING THIS SPACE if dat is ur intention.

- ENDS -

honorary life membership constitution amendment

here's a snippet of wats goin on on conf floor (feelin dizzy, sick and sickly, we still continue, my eyes are 'paining' and hands are cold. not too mention the sore phelgmy throat fr talkin too much!and i pee too much as well...:()

onli between, adrian wong aka evil emperor, jolene ho UWA, tiffy soh curtin uni & jacky teo incoming WA BC.

Constitutional Amendment : Honorary Life Membership

Speaker Against: Tiffy Soh Curtin UNi, My fellow delegates, i urge you to vote this motion down! do we reali want ppl like adrian (This is most def my last conf again) wong aka evil emperor of the galactic senate aka pain in the bum to interfere in nlc like he has this year AGAIN? Look at how much Adrian has done for the organisation!!! Under no grounds should NLC grant him such privelege. 20 years down the track I am hopeful Adrian will not be attending the conference and harass her the way he has! Muahahahhahaha.

Speaker For: Adrian Wong Evil Emperor of the Galactic Senate. My fellow delegates, I WANT TO BE AN HONARARY LIFE MEMBER!!! The amount of work I have done for this organisation has surpassed any NLC office bearer I have ever known. I don't care! I want my membership NOW!!!

Note: Real constitution amendment (look out for it in the minutes). Just waiting for the opportunity to speak. amendment: i have spoken ;p (now i am tired. REALI tired.)

nlcac2005

ooooooooook.

dats my comment for wat we're goin thru rite now. for naomi's benefit...its worst than 2 yrs ago or even last year...where's the convenor? no where to be seen ;p so we're pretty much screwed. guess who came? Adrian (this is most def my last conf) Wong aka Evil Emperor of the Galactic Senate (i kid u not) aka Pain in the Bum! (this is sharon's input ;p) aka The Godfather (or so he likes to think). And, Shanton left us :(

am currently waitin for quorum...hehhe, zi hao tan is CHAIR!!! he's plannin to remove me fr conf floor (which i will very much appreciate seeing dat sleep is expensive around here).

Random note: I was on today tonight on wednesday niteeeeeeee and ppl actuali recognise me! muahaha, i am indeed a celebrity...only prob is ppl like to go into lengthy arguments wif me abt international student security...yes, input is nice but am not reali up for it durin a conf dinner...and yes for the first time! i am not on VIP table...muahahahhaha, what happened dat nite...another story altogether.

now? SA and WA are trading 'in caucus' secrets but keep this on the low.

over and out

sydney

ok...this is it. this is my last one. i can't wait for it to be over and done with. Then i'll tackle the one at the end of the yr in melb...and i'm set. dat will be it..the end. no more student representation for me. period.

...for sum reason, this time...instead of stressed abt wat will happen...instead of thinkin of ways to make sure NLC survives...i am ready to question.

yeah...dats all.

i think i've overstayed my welcome in representation...its backfiring on me. i'm so worned out. i'm onli 21 and yet its as if every single day i'm battling for sumthin...i won't say its a lost cause but...i'm sick of the battling.

i'm tired of the shouting, the fights, the politics...all dat manipulation...aargh.

as for Sydney....i can't wait. it's gonna be fun.

hugs and kisses to all

over & out (for a pretty long time)....(well, depends ;p)

apologies

ok, i susah payah typed dat post and they did not show it last niteeeeeeeee....i've been duped. well, i guess they'll be showing it today!!!

well they better be or else....i paiseh for nothing onliiiiiii mahai...

the boy has left, i officially hv had onli 2 hrs of sleep...or maybe less, in any case, i'm still good for the mo, i reckon altho he says he doesn't like BIG entourages, deep down inside he's kinda glad they came ...if they do, and i noe he's gonna teed off for me saying this but i have said it so thereeee muahahahhaa

ala yang, u noe u want to see them...embarassing tho it is...hey, u come fr a big family, fuck the rest and enjoy the hugs, luv u.

wif the boy leaving...i kinda...find myself outta place...like ...wat do i normally do?

i'll proli get back on track in a couple of days...and then mun's gonna leave!!Argh!

to all those dat HAVE left and LEFT me ALONE well, i hope u're havin' a doubly good time or else it AIN'T worth itttttttttttt...

fidah...ala, how can u forget the baklava????? so VERY important, u got the pepperoni...but u din get the baklava, u got the 20 packs of tim tams, but u din get the baklava, u got the SIX logs of apple strudel, but u din get the baklava!!! hahahahahahahahahhahaa, yes yes very funnie, i hv v. little to entertain me now, so indulge me la ok!

to all those dat tuned in to Today Tonight yesterday and had to go thru dat horrifying torturous programme, i am ever so so so so sorry, i did not mean too(i wld never do dat, it's inhuman!!)...i've been duped like i said and i hope today they do cover it, or else, FUCK TODAY TONIGHT FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!

over n out